This is a give-away from a friend of mine.

She is making custom mirrors and one is a give away. Go to her site to get details.

http://hitomineko-hn.blogspot.com/2011/02/giveaway-custom-japanese-deco-mirror.html

What come around, goes around...

"What comes around goes around". This is a timeless piece that we love to tell those that have been hurt. It give us some sense of gratification on knowing that one day they will feel the pain that some one has inflected on us. I have been reading many blogs and post where someone has been hurt by a friend, family member or co-worker. That we have been pushed aside, cheated on, ignored or even just forgotten. We comfort each other by saying, "Don't worry about (insert name), just remember","What comes around, goes around". Then we feel just a bit better knowing that one day they will be hurt by someone as bad as we have been hurt by them. It make the healing process a bit faster.
The point of my post is simply this; What if everything that is bad happing to us was the result of what we have done in the past. We have at one point abandoned our friends, used them and miss-treated them. Our past "SO"; we have neglected them, not appreciated them and even maybe cheated on them. Our family members who we were bitter to, jealous about and just plain mean. What if back then maybe they were being comforted and told not to worry that, "What comes around, goes around". So are we just reaping what we sowed? It is our time to hurt because we caused pain to others? This is something to consider now that we know how much it hurts, that we need to treat those around us the best way we can. Maybe all the hurt in the would would eventually go away....

When you think about your childhood, what's the first thing that comes to mind?

There is not much that I remember about my childhood except that my younger brother and I were always mean to the youngest one. It was always just Charlie and me. we would play war games and hide and seek in the field next to us. Climb the highest trees in the yard and built forts in the bushes. When our youngest brother came alone and was able to crawl and walk, it seem like our fun had ended and we became more of babysitters than War Hero's or Ninja's fighting evil. We tried to get rid of this little person always messing up our playtime. So we wanted to get rid of him. One day we thought we could place him in the mailbox and the mail-man would take him somewhere else. Well that did not work because the mailman would just ring the doorbell and hand over our brother to mom and tell her where he found him. Other times we would leave him in the field in hopes that wild dogs would take him away. Well the field was not so big, just an empty lot with a couple of tress and high grass and the only wild dogs in the area were the ones that would lick you to death and laid on their back for you to pet them. Well nothing really worked in getting rid of him so one day we just placed him in a pillow case and put him in the middle of the street. As my brother and I just sat on the porch watching him try to wiggle out of the case, cars were honking and slowing down to try to take a peek as to what it was. Finally a city bus came to a stop and the driver got out to see what it was. The driver started poking at the pillow case only to hear our little brother starting to cry. Well the look on the drivers face and all the passengers on the bus gave us the ugliest looks one could ever get. The drive came up the walkway with my younger brother in hand, ringing the doorbell again to telling our mom what horrible sons she had. I think this was the last day we ever took care of him and all the other days were just a blurr but to this day our youngest brother still not forgotten what we have done to him. He has no resentment to us but he will still refuses be left in a room alone with my brother and I. 

I may start to be in trouble.

I have been avoiding to write something not because of all the drama going on here at Xanga. Its more like I don't want to face what is going on here at home. I keep telling myself that everything is going good and it will get better but the matter-of-fact is, nothing is going good. I have been out of work now going on three weeks. My unemployment checks are not here yet because they are saying that I have two more requirement to full-fill which I have already done. I have $10 in my account, I have been sick off and on since Christmas. My grandson has also been real sick as well. You know how 1 year olds are..very clingy. He wants either his Mom or me carrying him all the time. Its been real ugly outside so we have not gone anywhere except to the doctor. My wife has been carrying the load from all of us by her working but she just got a work email saying that they may be cutting back at her job as well by the end of the month. MY little niece has been visiting me more this time and that was the only small ray of hope that I have had so far. Every time she has to go back she cry's that she does not want to go back home and she wants to stay with us. Its not that she has a bad home life, that is not it she just wants to stay with us. So with all of this I can slowly feel depression starting to creep up on me again. This has happen about five years ago when I get go into major depression. I lost my great job and afterwards my money started dwindling down to zero, we started losing things. I lost my wifes explorer, my truck and almost lost our house things were getting cut of like phones, electricity and water. It was getting bad real bad. There was more to it as well but Its too long to write it. I just feel that it is starting to happen all over again. Its nice outside today, sun is out and my daughter is at school, my grandson is with his dad till my daughter is done for the day. I have to make myself get dressed go outside and do the things that need to be done since November. Then I will finish my day looking for more jobs (which is a different post all together).

City living verses Country Living...

Since I have been out of work for the past three weeks I have been toying with the idea about moving to San Marcos. Its about one and a half hour north of me. Just about all of my wifes family lives up there and we go about twice a month to go visit my mother-in-law (yes I like her). It would be nice to live out there where your nearest neighbor is a quarter mile away. The open sky where you can actually see more stars than headlights. To hear nothing but quiet or the whisper of the wind. To actually see the sun coming up on the horizon instead of seeing over rooftops and trees. To see the light of the moon instead of adding addition flood lights to see outside. I want to live where you don't have to worry about locking your doors at night and not worrying if your car will be parked where you left it that night. To actually get to see snow about every three years instead of having not seen it in twenty plus (yes, an hour and a half does make a difference in seeing snow). The bad things that is keeping me here in the city is, well, in a small city like that there is no real good jobs to choose from. You have two main choices there; either you work in retail at the big outlet mall or you work at the collage, (Texas State). I don't know anything about ranching or farming to live off of that and many people who live there have to commute to either San Antonio or Austin to work. Also I don't know if I can handle not living close to a 24 hr convenience store. Where I live at now, I can go in any direction for less than 5 miles and hit, 4-McDonald's, 6- 24hr stores, 3- Walmart's, 2- Target's and 2- malls. This is not including all the other fast food franchises and other stores that have two of each. Plus I live across the street from an elementary school, 2 blocks from a middle school and 4 blocks from a high school. All which my grandson can go to. There is 2 secondary colleges and one major college within 7 miles of me for my wife or I if we choose to go back to school. I live in the perfect area. So why am I having this discussion with myself about moving? Well its all about change, since I am out of work, I can actually do something different with my life, take my family into a different path, its a perfect time to make these changes, to completely have a new fresh start. I don't know, I think I am just rambling on because I don't want my mind to know that I actually do not know what to do. I just really need to find a job and get my mind off of silly things like this.